In this blog I will write about basically anything that floats around in my mind. Lately this has included topics such as my struggle with recurring depressions, needlecraft and artwork.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
It hurts
Sometimes I hurt, it hurts when people don't accept my ilness because it is not visisble on the outside. Just like diabetes, which is considered a true illness.
Yesterday I had an appointment with an expert to see if I qualify for a special benefits system for young handicapped people. The man basically told me I am too well, since I have a job and do function in society. i wish he could see in my heart and soul. I have to work so hard just to keep going. I guess now I am just waiting for a break down so I can't work at all.....maybe they will understand that
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I've heard it said that the Gods will not send us more than we can handle. I suspect you are stronger than you think you are and being deemed to be able to continue to work is simply an acknowledgement of that.
ReplyDeleteI do wish you relief of your pain, and I hope that you can find joy in your life as it is now. Perhaps the challenge in your life needs to be viewed through a different lens...
Blessings.
((hugs))
ReplyDeleteI know exactly how you feel. :( People who don't have such an affliction simply do not understand that every day is a struggle just to face the day.
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