Tramadol

I have been doing better these last few days. On Friday I had a regular appointment with my shrink, and I am so glad I told him I used painkillers for my broken thumb. I knew Tramadol woud cause some issues with my anti depressants, and I sure felt those. I was restless and extremely nervous. What I did not know was that it would mess with the levels of anti depressants in my system so badly. The shrink told me it may cause these severe after effects after about 3 weeks, which is what happened to me. It may take me a week or two but I will beat this!

Disconnected

Lately I feel as if I am in the wrong place or at least in the wrong time. I feel disconnected from the society I live in and long for something different. I know I use and appreciate all the modern conveniences like wifi and internet and of course modern medicine.....but I do long for something simpler

Depression

I get up and I am fine, I enjoy those when I can. Other days I have to put in some effort to get going and get the fog out of my head. That's ok, I guess everyone has some of those days, even when not struggling with depressions. And then there are the hard days,days when I seem to have to fight every second to keep the dark at bay. It keeps swirling in my head, won't settle no matter how I struggle......no matter that I rationally know there is no reason to feel the way I do ( this might even make it worse). No matter the weather, rain or sunshine...Today seems to be one of those days. I am glad it isn't so bad I can't read, still have my focus so I have an escape for now

tag swap

I have been following the Inspiration Avenue blog for a while now, and love reading all the creative stories. Last year I participated in the post card swap and I loved getting handcrafted things from all over the world in my mail box. So when a new swap was anounced in January it was a no brainer to participate again. We were to make tags this time, and because the tags were to be mailed out in February the theme was hearts ( Valentine's day..). So here are the tags I received ( Sadly I forgot to save the envelopes and I can't credit them to anyone..please comment when you recognize your work). I love the little drawing in the first one, especially since I suck at drawing reallife people..The second one has some stitching in it and I love stitchery ( at the moment I am working on a quilt), and I absolutely love the saying and the way it was executed on the last one. It is almost a two for one..Follow your heart and art! Love them all!!!!

Two birds with one stone

At the moment I am making a cover for my shamans drum. I wanted to start weaving in the round straight away, but found the thread was a bit thin. The lady who gave me the tutorial used a fingerknitted cord, and I decided to use a crocheted thread. So now I am making the thread for my weaving project and teaching myself to crochet at the same time. I am getting good at keeping the tension the same and my chain stitch will be awesome. Later on I will try something more complicated, but for now I am happily watching speedskating and crocheting...